Spotting again . . . .

Something about appointments apparently makes me spot. I spotted right before our beta, and our 8 week u/s appointment, and now again right before the 12 week u/s . . . and every time it scares the hell out of me!! Last night before bed, I discovered I was spotting. Pretty heavily, actually. I'm trying not to panic . . . . but that is like trying not to watch a train wreck in progress. I woke up this morning . . . and I'm still spotting, but I think it is starting to dissipate.

Please let this baby be okay . . . we are in the home stretch of the 1st trimester - hang in there little one!!

First OB appointment

Today I woke up excited for our first OB appointment . . . until I went to the bathroom and realized I was spotting. I became panicked, and I was sure I was going to miscarry. We got to the doctor's office - and no one was there! Our appointment was at 8, they asked us to arrive at 7:45, and we were not seen until 8:50. I was LIVID - the doctor blamed the ultrasound tech, and the ultrasound tech blamed the doctor, but the bottom line was neither one of them showed up on time and we were forced to wait.

The ultrasound tech was horribly rude. I mentioned that I was worried about the spotting, and when she did the ultrasound, she hid the screen from us. When I asked her questions, she told me that she doesn't share information. I was not pleased with this office at all. I asked her a simple question - was there a heartbeat - and she wouldn't even answer me.

Luckily, it all turned out to be good news. The baby's heartbeat was measured at 178, so doing quite well. I have to go back for another ultrasound with the rude lady in two weeks to monitor my ovary (it is currently enlarged), and then another appointment at 12 weeks. We also got a prescription to do a nuchal translucency scan to check for Down's Syndrome. I'll be setting that up soon!

Big Day Tomorrow

Tomorrow morning, we have our first ultrasound scheduled. I'm terrified and excited at the same time . . . I just hope we have a healthy baby with a heartbeat growing in there. I keep having these horrible feelings that something is wrong. I had a nightmare Saturday night that I miscarried - it was so graphic that I thought it was real. I was so upset when I woke up; it took me about 20 minutes to really believe it was just a terrible dream. We always seem to get bad news - I just hope we are in for a run of good news for a change!

Uh oh . . . spotting!

Everyone always says spotting is "normal" in early pregnancy, but I'm spotting today, and I'm scared. My symptoms have been much less today, and now the spotting . . . I just hope this isn't the beginning of the end. I think pregnancy takes nerves of steel, and I am not sure that I have nerves of steel.

It is a long wait until my blood test results tomorrow afternoon.