Full Term Today

Well, after everything we've been through, today I'm officially 37 weeks and this baby is "full-term." We had our 37 week appointment, and I'm making a bit of progress. I'm still 2 cm dilated, but easily stretchable to 3 cm. I'm 80% effaced, but my cervix is quite soft, and the baby "engaged" - I'm at 0 station now.

She decided to "stretch" my cervix a bit to see if she could kick things up a bit. It has - I've now had my "bloody show" and the contractions have kicked back up a bit. She thinks I won't last more than another week on my own, so we'll see if she is correct.

C'mon baby . . . let's go!

Spotting again . . . .

Something about appointments apparently makes me spot. I spotted right before our beta, and our 8 week u/s appointment, and now again right before the 12 week u/s . . . and every time it scares the hell out of me!! Last night before bed, I discovered I was spotting. Pretty heavily, actually. I'm trying not to panic . . . . but that is like trying not to watch a train wreck in progress. I woke up this morning . . . and I'm still spotting, but I think it is starting to dissipate.

Please let this baby be okay . . . we are in the home stretch of the 1st trimester - hang in there little one!!

First OB appointment

Today I woke up excited for our first OB appointment . . . until I went to the bathroom and realized I was spotting. I became panicked, and I was sure I was going to miscarry. We got to the doctor's office - and no one was there! Our appointment was at 8, they asked us to arrive at 7:45, and we were not seen until 8:50. I was LIVID - the doctor blamed the ultrasound tech, and the ultrasound tech blamed the doctor, but the bottom line was neither one of them showed up on time and we were forced to wait.

The ultrasound tech was horribly rude. I mentioned that I was worried about the spotting, and when she did the ultrasound, she hid the screen from us. When I asked her questions, she told me that she doesn't share information. I was not pleased with this office at all. I asked her a simple question - was there a heartbeat - and she wouldn't even answer me.

Luckily, it all turned out to be good news. The baby's heartbeat was measured at 178, so doing quite well. I have to go back for another ultrasound with the rude lady in two weeks to monitor my ovary (it is currently enlarged), and then another appointment at 12 weeks. We also got a prescription to do a nuchal translucency scan to check for Down's Syndrome. I'll be setting that up soon!

Nervous Again

This is quite a roller coaster ride . . . and I've never enjoyed roller coasters. I had a long day today - I woke up early to bake and decorate a cake for Heather's open house for her new business. Then, I came home, made a pasta salad, and went off to a bbq/poker night at Niki's house. We were out until about 12:30, and when I got home . . . I discovered that I'm spotting again. I'm so worried something is wrong with this baby, and I just don't know how I can handle that.

I was feeling so great today. Well, maybe great is the wrong word - nauseated most of the day, but excited that my symptoms were getting worse. At the BBQ tonight, one of my friends unintentionally made another obnoxious comment about me not being pregnant. For the first time, the comment made me smile because I knew that I AM PREGNANT!! It was just so nice not to be devastated by those little comments. We were surrounded by babies at this party, and two of my friends are pregnant, and I was so excited to be thinking "me, too!"

I hope this spotting is nothing. I'm going to go upstairs and rest, and hope it is all gone by morning, and that everything goes well at the u/s on Tuesday.

Uh oh . . . spotting!

Everyone always says spotting is "normal" in early pregnancy, but I'm spotting today, and I'm scared. My symptoms have been much less today, and now the spotting . . . I just hope this isn't the beginning of the end. I think pregnancy takes nerves of steel, and I am not sure that I have nerves of steel.

It is a long wait until my blood test results tomorrow afternoon.